


For at least the past ten years my beloved has been asking me to go get a sleep study done. Several times she has woken me up from what i thought was a deep sleep to let me know that i was snoring, or that i had stopped breathing. To be completely honest i was skeptical of the breathing part. The snoring part i always thought that was just a part of sleeping.
Finally, about a month ago i broached the subject with my doctor because i was feeling pretty run down but no fever, etc. He referred me to a sleep study clinic and my first study was about two weeks ago. A few days later i get a call from the doctor's office to ask that i come in for my follow up the next day. I thought that they just were not aware of the follow up appointment i already scheduled for four days later. No, they were aware of it, but would like for me to come in the next day anyway. Turns out, not only do i have sleep apnea, but apparently i also experience 'nocturnal seizures'. 8| A second sleep study, with a CPAP machine showed improvement with the apnea, but it also confirmed the seizures. I am scheduled for a follow up with a Neurologist in the coming days. I could blog about this for sometime, but needless to say this has me concerned. But i have also been reminded of all that God has brought me through to where i am today. It is all in His hands.

Last night, on my Google Reader, i saw a blog entry from Joshua Harris titled "Bad Idea: Minding Sin More Than the Savior". Now his blog entry is a quote from Thomas Brooks' book "Precious Remedies Against Satan's Devices", but the quote he used really got me thinking.
"The first device that Satan has to keep souls in a sad, doubting, and questioning condition, and so making their life a hell, is by causing them to be still poring and musing upon sin, to mind their sins more than their Savior; yes, so to mind their sins as to forget, yes, to neglect their Savior, that, as the Psalmist speaks, 'The Lord is not in all their thoughts' (Psalm 10:4). Their eyes are so fixed upon their disease, that they cannot see the remedy, though it be near; and they do so muse upon their debts, that they have neither mind nor heart to think of their Surety. A Christian should wear Christ in his bosom as a flower of delight, for he is a whole paradise of delight. He who minds not Christ more than his sin, can never be thankful and fruitful as he should."


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