Well, last night I shared this blog address with two of the Pastors at my church, and then the team leader of the small group leaders. This morning I am questioning my motive. I think it has more to do with feeling like they do not know me very well. I am questioning my 'legitimacy' as a small group leader, let alone as a 'lay leader' in some form of ministry. I want to know that I am not stepping out into the line of fire - where I will pull other people down, instead of building them up in Christ. I am solomnly aware that a leader at any level is been given a charge to present Christ... I guess I just want them to know me, and if the Holy Spirit reveals some form of concern to them, that they could present it to me... Now I am even questioning my motives in typing this up... In truth only charecter and deeds observed over time can build an accurate picture. Round and round we go... Verse for today... Luke 6:43-45 esv “For no good tree bears bad fruit, nor again does a bad tree bear good fruit, for each tree is known by its own fruit. For figs are not gathered from thornbushes, nor are grapes picked from a bramble bush. The good person out of the good treasure of his heart produces good, and the evil person out of his evil treasure produces evil, for out of the abundance of the heart his mouth speaks.

1 comment:

BigMama said...

Boy I hear that one! Jason and I both struggle with being understood and it can sometimes lead to trying either of us trying to "prove" ourselves to others. It can be hard to be faithful in the small matters, especially when you feel called to the larger ones, but I do believe it's the best way to "prove" your character.