Creative 'juices' running amok

Well, lately I've been really wanting to write a much longer and more coherent story. But I am full of self doubts, etc. I have a real vague idea of a story, but no specifics ro idea how it should flow. If I do I will keep my friends posted here. I am also hoping that it will some how distract me when other temptations try and rear their ugly heads. Including ones that cost money. This summer has been an incredible drain on finances. My car, the A/C, a various other maintenance around the house have all put a toll on the budget. The treatment and care for my DS#2 and his Aspergers are especially taxing. I am really feeling the preasure to provide, and with the desire to retire from the National Guard that reduces my monthly income even further. I know I need to rely on God for my income... but my beloved is exceptionally good at pointing out how much I am spending... *sigh* I feel like I am failing in my provision when it is my spending that is contributing. Well, who knows... Updates: Hiku, Yarns Verse for today: 1 Corinthians 13, esv If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. And if I have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give away all I have, and if I deliver up my body to be burned, [1] but have not love, I gain nothing. Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never ends. As for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when the perfect comes, the partial will pass away. When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I gave up childish ways. For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I have been fully known. So now faith, hope, and love abide, these three; but the greatest of these is love.