Where to turn

My beloved and I have gone through this before. There is this underlying feeling that something is wrong, and we are left to try and figure out what God's will is for us.

I am not sure how much to write about here as there are some close friends who occasionally read these ramblings. It's not like I am trying to conceal a sin. A situation has come to light at the local church I attend and it has caused me some concern. So much so that I am considering taking my family away from that church and to another one. This is hard because we are deeply involved there. We serve in ministry there. Our children are involved in a lot of activities there. We have made a few friends there. But at the same time this issue has caused me to rethink our continued involvement there. And it is not just my family.

Should we stick it out? Should we bring these concerns to others? Right now it is not possible to bring this issue to the person as I should not know the situation.
Verse for today:
Titus 1 : 7-9, ESV
For an overseer, [4] as God's steward, must be above reproach. He must not be arrogant or quick-tempered or a drunkard or violent or greedy for gain, but hospitable, a lover of good, self-controlled, upright, holy, and disciplined. He must hold firm to the trustworthy word as taught, so that he may be able to give instruction in sound [5] doctrine and also to rebuke those who contradict it.

Discipline - or the lack there of

Being a military man of over 21 years, and a samurai 'enthusiast', you would think discipline would be a defining charecteristic of me and my life. I am here to tell you that it is not. Well, at least not to the extent I believe it should be. By God's grace I was saved into a church that preached about, and lived, and discipled the importance of the Spiritual disciplines. Reading, memorization, quiet times, fasting, praying... but to my dismay and discredit - it is an area that I have never excelled in. I have never even been mediocre. *sigh* I consistantly struggle with sins in my life. The same ones, over and over again. Now I know that, short of heaven, I will never be free of this struggle. But to fall to the same ones repeatedly is discouraging. Why is it that I cannot get myself up consistantly just fifteen minutes early to read, or pray. When I am entrusted to teach or lead some form of small group I am rarely prepared like I should be. I am just really mad at myself for not being more disciplined right now... I should not struggle with this... but I do... every day. Verse for today: Titus 1:7-9, ESV For an overseer, [4] as God's steward, must be above reproach. He must not be arrogant or quick-tempered or a drunkard or violent or greedy for gain, but hospitable, a lover of good, self-controlled, upright, holy, and disciplined. He must hold firm to the trustworthy word as taught, so that he may be able to give instruction in sound [5] doctrine and also to rebuke those who contradict it.