In the signature of my personal e-mail i have a link to my blog here. It's to shamelessly plug my blog among my friends... and yet, ironically, i have no consistent readers among the friends i have in real life (vs. just facebook, or whatever). Well, sometimes my work entails working by phone and it is often hard to get concepts across, especially as i think visually (i.e. in pictures) and then i have to translate them into words... which does not always convey what i am "seeing" very well (especially for a guy flunked English - a LOT). The other day i had to exchange (quite) a few e-mails via my awesome HTC EVO. Well, for a variety of reasons my phone is not synchronized to use my work e-mail account so we tread carefully and we used my personal account to banter back and forth and resolved the issue we were working on. 
About an hour later my coworker sent me a text message saying how much he liked the blog - mostly the information links pertaining to Autism in general, and Aspergers in particular. I am not sure why, but i was embarrassed. Now, this blog gets posted to my Facebook profile and i have at sometime or another told all of my friends about it, so i make it a point to be careful what i post, to not post anything that i would not want to be public knowledge... so why should i be embarrassed by this blog? I am actually pretty proud of it. 
About an hour later my coworker sent me a text message saying how much he liked the blog - mostly the information links pertaining to Autism in general, and Aspergers in particular. I am not sure why, but i was embarrassed. Now, this blog gets posted to my Facebook profile and i have at sometime or another told all of my friends about it, so i make it a point to be careful what i post, to not post anything that i would not want to be public knowledge... so why should i be embarrassed by this blog? I am actually pretty proud of it. My all time favorite Facebook game, MouseHunt continues to improve itself. In addition to a recent Baron area (a fairly high level) called the Sandtail Desert Region
, the developers of this game have expanded upon the Chess themed area i love so much called the Crystal Library. 
Love this new area. One has to perform "research" in order to accomplish the needed tasks in order to eventually make an entirely new trap for a new adversary. In many ways it is similar to the Dragon Mouse. You have to fashion a special trap for the one mouse! However, there is also a brand new trap - that looks like a new Shadow type trap... pretty cool. Still enjoying this game after playing it for 18 months now... and for me... that is saying something.
, the developers of this game have expanded upon the Chess themed area i love so much called the Crystal Library. Love this new area. One has to perform "research" in order to accomplish the needed tasks in order to eventually make an entirely new trap for a new adversary. In many ways it is similar to the Dragon Mouse. You have to fashion a special trap for the one mouse! However, there is also a brand new trap - that looks like a new Shadow type trap... pretty cool. Still enjoying this game after playing it for 18 months now... and for me... that is saying something.My writing has been sporadic at best of late. Just too many other things in life to distract me. I still enjoy it, and it is a relaxing way to dream (so to speak) and i can start/stop without having to get out a bunch of materials, setting it all up, and then having to tear it all down again and put it away when i am finished. 
Even the actually sitting down to type/write is not all that involved. Recently Gav Thorpe wrote out a pretty detailed process of how he wrote one of his Elf novel trilogies. 
That really made me realize that i will most likely, barring the sky splitting open to tell me that this is what God wants me to do, never be a published writer. I am ok with that. 
This is just a hobby, one to be enjoyed. If it becomes a struggle... then it will no longer be a hobby, but work. In any event, i am not sure how long my Eldar Ranger story line will be shelved, but it may be until the last novel in the Eldar trilogy is released sometime next Summer/Fall. The 2nd one of the series, Path of the Seer, is due to be out any day now. Looking forward to this one, but not as much as the last one in the series titled, Path of the Outcast. My recent attempts are still forming, but i will share them on my short story blog when i am ready.
Even the actually sitting down to type/write is not all that involved. Recently Gav Thorpe wrote out a pretty detailed process of how he wrote one of his Elf novel trilogies. That really made me realize that i will most likely, barring the sky splitting open to tell me that this is what God wants me to do, never be a published writer. I am ok with that. 
This is just a hobby, one to be enjoyed. If it becomes a struggle... then it will no longer be a hobby, but work. In any event, i am not sure how long my Eldar Ranger story line will be shelved, but it may be until the last novel in the Eldar trilogy is released sometime next Summer/Fall. The 2nd one of the series, Path of the Seer, is due to be out any day now. Looking forward to this one, but not as much as the last one in the series titled, Path of the Outcast. My recent attempts are still forming, but i will share them on my short story blog when i am ready. 
One thing my depression has done, it affected my desire to take care of myself. Not in selfish ways (although the semi-intentional self neglect could be classified as selfish), but in ways like watching what and how much i eat, and exercising. I have always loved running. For as long as i can remember i have loved it. 
From the time my dad "dragged" me, my brother and my step mother out to the park in New York City to go running with him (i don't remember if i complained back then, but my memories of it now are all good), up through High School when i up and joined the Cross Country team (our 1st day of practice - 12 miles "warm up" 8 sets of hills, 8 wind sprints, then a 3 mile "cool down"), through my time in the Guard. When i am in shape... i love the sensation of running. I enjoy the "burn", i enjoy the personal challenge, the "mind over matter", i enjoy being alone in thought to pray or dream or just - not. LOL. But, i have let myself go over time. Later on in my military service i stopped running all the time and would only get in shape to pass the APFT. Well, since retiring in July of '08 i've not done ANY serious running. As a result i added another 15 pounds to the frame (which was already 30 pounds over weight if you ask the doctors) and i started to develop problems with the knees. About four months ago i was talked into trying out a pair of "minimalist" shoes for work. Long story short, my knee ached less and gave me a lot less trouble using the stairs. In June, i finally got the nerve to try and start running again and began the "Couch to 5k" (c25k) program. It got off to a rocky start. I developed discomfort in both knees and my right ankle. Some of this was due to the "minimalist" style, and part of it is due to my being over weight and inactivity. 
Well, i dialed it down some and began to just walk (in running it is almost NEVER a good idea to just run through the pain). Once i was able to maintain a 4mph walking pace with no linger pain or needing to take a day or more off, i started the jogging back up. Yesterday was the first day back to jogging and i am pretty psyched. it's hard to keep the enthusiasm in check so that i don't injure myself and keep on track. I am down 5 pounds since starting. Who knows... if this works, and i can sustain it over time... maybe i can get off of the Celexa. But if not... i am ok with that too.
From the time my dad "dragged" me, my brother and my step mother out to the park in New York City to go running with him (i don't remember if i complained back then, but my memories of it now are all good), up through High School when i up and joined the Cross Country team (our 1st day of practice - 12 miles "warm up" 8 sets of hills, 8 wind sprints, then a 3 mile "cool down"), through my time in the Guard. When i am in shape... i love the sensation of running. I enjoy the "burn", i enjoy the personal challenge, the "mind over matter", i enjoy being alone in thought to pray or dream or just - not. LOL. But, i have let myself go over time. Later on in my military service i stopped running all the time and would only get in shape to pass the APFT. Well, since retiring in July of '08 i've not done ANY serious running. As a result i added another 15 pounds to the frame (which was already 30 pounds over weight if you ask the doctors) and i started to develop problems with the knees. About four months ago i was talked into trying out a pair of "minimalist" shoes for work. Long story short, my knee ached less and gave me a lot less trouble using the stairs. In June, i finally got the nerve to try and start running again and began the "Couch to 5k" (c25k) program. It got off to a rocky start. I developed discomfort in both knees and my right ankle. Some of this was due to the "minimalist" style, and part of it is due to my being over weight and inactivity. Well, i dialed it down some and began to just walk (in running it is almost NEVER a good idea to just run through the pain). Once i was able to maintain a 4mph walking pace with no linger pain or needing to take a day or more off, i started the jogging back up. Yesterday was the first day back to jogging and i am pretty psyched. it's hard to keep the enthusiasm in check so that i don't injure myself and keep on track. I am down 5 pounds since starting. Who knows... if this works, and i can sustain it over time... maybe i can get off of the Celexa. But if not... i am ok with that too.
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