I once heard a slogan that said, "Moving at the speed of life". For the life of me i cannot remember what the product or service was that it was for now... and i am too tired to try and research it (sorry anxious reader). But the saying is a 'truism'. Life never stops, it never even slows down. From my perspective it only seems to get faster and faster. This is the time of my children's lives i should be most enjoying. Soaking it all in. But it is neigh impossible. It feels like i can barely catch my own breath. I get up, sometimes i help get lunches made and make sure they are on the bus off to school, then i go to work, i get home i play taxi driver to/from practices, when my beloved is working i will whip up something for dinner (over baked BBQ chicken is a recent hit), then i try and check homework (which i think i am failing at because DD3 is struggling silently in math and social studies), try and make sure they wash behind their ears and then shew the youngsters off to bed, and then climb in between the sheets myself, only to repeat the next day. Weekends are not much better. Replace work with chores and/or running to/from games and church on Sundays. I love my kids, and i try and make a priority of spending time with them... but it all just seems to blur by so fast. I don't want to blink and have an empty house. But life never slows down. To quote Mr. Bueller, "Life moves pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it." The trick is... getting yourself stopped long enough to get that look in. I wish i could slow down those moments like the Ba'ku in the movie
Star trek: Insurrection. I think that is why the Psalmist says, "
Be still and know I am God." (
Psalm 46:10,
ESV) (Note: it is always important to read verses in context of the surrounding verses - too often verses are taken out of context to mean something other than they were intended for - in this case the passages are talking about taking the time to contemplate all of the things God has done.)
Speaking of moving at the speed of life... i recently started a new job. It happened incredibly fast. I was approached, sort of off to the side, where i was asking how happy i was with my (now previous) employer. The question caught me so off guard that i asked him what he meant. When he clarified i say, i'm pretty happy with the people i work with, but the corporate environment and mentality of the company as a whole - i was pretty disillusioned. I was encouraged to inquire with an incoming company regarding some new positions. Not knowing what to expect i sent off an e-mail to the points of contact i had been given. That day i received an e-mail and a phone call from one of the POC's saying he was forwarding my request to what i refer to as a "head hunter" (HH) - sort of a person who weeds through potentials and does a lot of the preliminary leg work so that companies don't have to "waste" as much time sorting through the piles of applicants and can focus on the smaller group of "potentials". The next day i received a phone call from the HH, but i did not get the message until after work as we were literally moving offices across town. The next day i call the HH back and he asks me a few questions, then asks if i mind f he bridges on two or three others - i am interviewed right then! Technical questions, etc. I was caught off guard again and felt pretty unprepared, but i felt like i did OK. Later that night i get a call from the company's Human Resources person. She asked me a few more questions and talked to me about the position they wanted to hire me for. I was blown away, not just because the speed at which things were moving, but it was also a different position than i was led to believe i was applying for - which was fine, because it was a position i had pined for, for about two years. The only downside... the group was based out of downtown Washington DC. I hesitatingly mentioned that i could not do that kind of commute day in and day out; however, if i could work at the 'remote' office and only make the trip downtown a few times a month (after a train up period) i would accept. The next day (a grand total of three business days) i was offered, and i accepted the position. I am still amazed how it all happened, but this has been how God has moved regarding my entire career.
When i first got into my career it was because i was having trouble getting started in college (long story) and i was delivering pizzas at the time. My beloved was starting her career having just graduated college (i proposed to her on her graduation day). I was just looking to get a better paying job until i could start school full time. I came in a entry level and they taught me the skills i needed. I moved up, and then when my beloved became pregnant with DS1 i borrowed some money from the in-laws and went to a 6 month trade school at night. When i finished that i sent out exactly one resume and was hired. Again, they taught me the skills i needed specific to the job, and there were a lot of eager mentors to show me the ropes and i moved up with that company as well. Quickly moving from the desk, to shift lead, and then to a change control group. Each step of the way i found people willing to teach me. Then 9/11 hit, i was deployed for 13 months and when i came back i was given a hard choice. In the end it was not really all that hard - after being away from the family for that year my position was moved to the swing shift. I was going to miss seeing the family during the week. But then, an opportunity came along to jump to a new group, one that was on site with the customer - but... it was a 2 pay grade reduction, and counting the shift differential i lost out on... a 20 percent cut in pay. Since then i have slowly risen to new positions. I was once asked how i got the job i had and how they could get one similar. I answered the guy, it's not possible to do it the way i did it (i still explained how it all went down and the path i had taken)... but looking back... it should not be possible. God has been incredibly generous to this High School dropout. I have a position that i can provide for my family of 5 on my single income... pretty much unheard of in this day and age.
No matter how fast life is... take the time to give thanks and look around. Marvel at all that God has done, and is doing. We only come this way once... find a way to be like the Ba'ku, and slow down time to enjoy the experience. I say this to myself as much as anyone.
I had been in a writing rut for quite a few months. Part of it was due to wanting to wait until Path of the Seer by Gav Thorpe to be released. I wanted more if his insight into the Eldar of the Warhammer 40,000 world. But lately i have actually been having pretty good ideas... well, at least in my opinion. I've not even written down my notes. Mostly because i've been pretty tired lately and it clouds my memory so i will forget what i wanted to write down, or to even write at all. 
Well, a friend set a goal for herself... 100 words a day. It can be an averaged, but she encouraged me to say just to use it as a goal per day, and allow myself the grace to excuse myself when i miss the goal. Sounds like a plan.
